I'm not going to do your typical introductory blog post . . .  I'm going to dig right into the meat of this and write as if noone is paying any attention.  I've had a blog before, and I've no intention of having this one read by anyone I know or have known.  I'll make it more personal.  For venting.  I've been having the sort of thoughts lately that I've thought that I want to record, but we'll justsee if this gets updated or not.  Writing things gets things out for me so there'll probably be a fair chance, anyways.

I'm feeling pretty frustrated right now, I feel as if I've hurt someone completely unintentionally.  I have this friend, let's call her Button, I'm not quite sure why that name but it seems to fit.  Well I've known Button for a long time now, about fourteen years, and we've been sort-of close friends for the last three-ish years.  We've gone to school all the way from senior kindergarten to our first year of university, excepting last year when I took a year for an exchange and she did more highschool, but I digress.  (It seems I really am explaining things to you, my fictitious audience.  Or maybe just to empty cyberspace.)  Button is a nice girl, and I tend to joke with her a fair bit; she's the sort of person that seems to need teasing to come out of her shell.  Or so I thought.  Apparently not so much, and I've hurt her feelings somehow, and . . .  that's the last thing I wanted.  I don't really know how to change my attitude towards her, nor do I know the details of what upset her, except that I've not been quiet about certain things that are supposed to be quiet and . . .

I really need to be writing my paper.

Except that the thought of this is making me sick to my stomach.  That I could hurt her without intending it, or even realizing it.  I should really learn when to keep my mouth shut.  And I should really learn how to read people better.  But then, I've never really been good at that, I've only ever aspired and attempted to be.  Too naive and trusting.  The aspiration to do good does not equal actually doing good, a lesson to learn.

Also, I should learn not to procrastinate.